The (Gleek) Diaries.

2009-12-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

I don't know you are reading or not. But it's a msg for you!

xoxo

P/S: Thanks Joe.

Migrating.

2009-12-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

So a new year is around the corner. So I thought I may want to migrate.

So for those who really wanna know where I am migrating?

...

Just ask me.

For now.... Laters.

Last Christmas.

2009-12-25T00:09:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS (Finally).

I wish in this moment I will be bless with all the luck and the success for my future endeavors and other specs in my life and of course my family and friends.

And I hope that this coming new year will start with prosperous note.

And I do hope for one wish, so hope You up there able hear my prayer and hope he answer it. =)

Thank you

xoxo

Alomst Done.

2009-12-11T21:49:00.003+08:00

December is almost over, soon. And here I am still waiting for news about my student pass which I am hopeful for a positive feedback.

I always thought 2009 is my worse year ever, hoping that 2010 will be better.

2010 is not even started but I already think that it's not gonna be a great year. I mean, there are so many things happened and it wont be the same to compared from last year.

I will have new friends, new things to learn and all the new stuff but hey! It's new year, so everything is gonna be new. I am trying to learn to let go of the past and accept the new, but something you can't simply replace the past. Hence, why history is very important to all of us?

We can't rewrite or relive history but we can look at it and make out of it something great in our life.

xoxo

DjKoko

Down.

2009-12-08T02:57:00.002+08:00

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up what I’ve been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
Oh I am going down, down, down
Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Oh it’s coming down, down, down.

xoxo
DjKoko

Taking Chances.

2009-11-29T22:37:00.001+08:00

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,

When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world- Celine Dion (Glee Cast)

xoxo

DjKoko

Long Time.

2009-11-29T01:56:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile that I really blog about anything happening in my life. As technically my life is as always that blah.

November is gonna end soon, and this month I didn't do much work as I though of giving myself a break from all the travelling, although I must say that I miss it and travelling around with other rep(s). That was an exp that worth gaining.

Well, right now I waiting for my student pass to be process and oh Lord please let me sail through the custom as I don't want to be rejected and got to wait for another few months! That ain't cool! I really missed school and my friends over there.

Or maybe say I had enough of Indonesia, yeah! I will still miss Indo, the cheap stuff and awesome food and not gonna miss the traffic though.

All a while I thought it was great to have some friends around, but my friends are not really around much. Yes, some maybe busy with work or sometimes the timing was not right.

And it strikes me that sometimes I felt very lonely. But I guess I am used to that kind of feeling.

All and all, 2009 is really not a great year for me. Well... To a certain extend I guess.

xoxo

DjKoko

Imagine.

2009-11-27T04:43:00.000+08:00

I love it to the max of my soul and life!!!

xoxo
DjKoko

He is Good!!!

2009-11-21T18:12:00.002+08:00

xoxo
DjKoko

1 Is Enough.

2009-11-17T02:14:00.003+08:00

"To have one good friend is worth to have 10 friends & to have one good friend that can count on"

Nicely said!!

xoxo

DjKoko

Temporary Home.

2009-11-15T02:58:00.002+08:00

Little boy, six years old
A little too used to being alone
Another new mom and dad, another school
Another house that'll never be home

When people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face

This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know
This is my temporary home

A young mom on her own
She needs a little help, got no where to go
She's looking for a job, looking for a way out
'Cause a half-way house will never be a home

At night she whispers to her baby girl
Someday we'll find our place here in this world

This is our temporary home
It's not where we belong
Windows and rooms that we're passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where we're going
I'm not afraid because I know
This is our temporary home

Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers, "don't cry for me,
I'll see you all someday"

He looks up and says,
"I can see God's face"

This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passing through
This was just a stop on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know
This was my temporary home

This is our temporary home -Carrie Underwood.

xoxo

DjKoko

Now Wait.

2009-11-12T16:18:00.001+08:00

Submitted my scholarship application.

Now i just hope for the best.

Fingers, toes and butt cheeks crossed.

xoxo

DjKoko

GLEE!

2009-11-05T15:39:00.000+08:00

I LOVE GLEE!

xoxo

DjKoko

What's Next?

2009-11-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

It's November already!

I am done unlocking potentials already, so pretty much free.

What should I do next?

I dying to go back Singapore to continue studying and get over and done with school.

Please ICA accept the damn programme already!!

And I want to go Bali! I really want! But the timing is so off, even though I am pretty much free.

Crap! Indonesia is having electricity crisis man! Keep having blackout! Ain't cool man!

I want to get out of here!!!!!

Someone! Help!!

Argh!!!

...

xoxo

DjKoko

God! I Hate You!

2009-10-27T21:03:00.001+08:00

God! I cant stand you!!!

I am so not proud related with you! And I will not make you as my role model!!!

I swear I won't!

xoxo

DjKoko

Pay For Life.

2009-10-25T17:22:00.003+08:00

That's one of the really... perplexing thing about life isn't it?

Any pleasure comes with a price. We drink too much, we wake up hung over. We eat too much, we pack on the pounds. You enjoy one moment of lust, and you live a lifetime of guilt.

Yeah.

What feels good comes with a cost. At the end of the day, it's just a matter of figuring out how much you are willing to pay.

xoxo

DjKoko

Annoying!!

2009-10-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

Why is he always treating us like that huh?

Wtf!!

I am sick and tired of his attitude lah!!!

Damn! Nth that make him come to his sense!!!

GRRR!!!

xoxo

DjKoko

2009-10-13T21:48:00.001+08:00

Once you are an asshole, you are always an asshole!

Get a life!!!

xoxo

DjKoko

Ink.

2009-10-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

I wanna get a tattoo soon.

I want it. But I am not sure where to hide it! Haha!

Damn! I WANT!!!!

xoxo

DjKoko

Bukan Cinta Biasa/Di Antara Kalian.

2009-10-04T22:23:00.002+08:00

So in love with this songs!

OH!

AND THIS!

LOVE TO THE MAX!

xoxo
DjKoko

F. U. 2009

2009-09-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

Lately I just have a short fuse of temper. I tend to go angry and annoyed very easily!

I don't really know what's got into me, but definitely need to get rid of it.

I am really sick of everything happening around me! I just really cant understand why all the things that I want it to happen to me it didn't actually doing it for me, where is for friends or others they like got it so damn fucking easily.

The fuck? 2009 is not over! But I know that 2009 is a bloody stuck fuck up year for me for sure!

I really hope 2010 will be better!

Fuck you 2009!

xoxo

DjKoko

I Made An Accident.

2009-09-18T21:58:00.001+08:00

CRASHED!

Met a car accident!

Damn!

Nothing serious... But the car...

Sigh!

xoxo

DjKoko

Death Bed.

2009-09-14T18:54:00.002+08:00

I am still sick from the fatigue i recently experienced from Batam trip.

Damn! I need to adjust this life man! I can't possibly be getting sick almost all the time.

Damn it Riz!

You are big guy! You should have all the fiber in you to adapt to it!

Sigh!

Now I have a lot of things to handle.

First my sis BB not working in Sg now i got to fix it here! And stupid $@#%$@% (should not name names) damn reluctant to help! Cheebs!

Next, i really need to hear at least one good news regarding my studies! God damn it!

Why is it all happening to me NOW?

Fuck!

I just want my life back. Simple.

xoxo
DjKoko

I Was Once (A) Happy Boy.

2009-09-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

Here I am still surviving suburbia.

Was told that I am gonna to do a lot of traveling for next month. I am not sure if it's a good thing or bad.

Matter of fact, I am really done with whatever happening.

I am just an ordinary guy that just wanna have a simple ordinary life, how hard can it be? Seriously?

Le Sigh...

xoxo
DjKoko

Insomnia.

2009-08-26T22:36:00.003+08:00

I don't really know how am I suppose to start this entry.

But my point is that, I am unhappy.

I am unhappy with things turned out in my life. I really don't know what I did wrong with my life that makes me think that way.

I mean, this year is really suck. And I mean it!

SUCK BIG TIME!

MOM disapproved my working pass.
MOE have yet validated my Degree programme.

Ultimately, they are just dragging my purpose of life.

Damn!

What did I do wrong that I really deserve this?

It's just so unfair.

Sigh...

I am angry much!

xoxo
DjKoko

I Am Depress Much!

2009-08-21T21:24:00.001+08:00

I am so devastated and depressed at one go.

Callie told me that I might not be able to attend or rather my degree due to MOE yet to make a clearance of the course I am taking.

What is this? That's really damn fucked up!

I don't know if I can really bear till next year to continue my studies.

Will lost my mojo to study?
Will I really done with school now?

Man!

I don't know where I did wrong with my life. It's seems that everything is not as what as planned.

Fuck!

Now I got to keep telling my friends that I am not going back this October. I am sick and tired that I have to tell them that. Each of them keep asking me when I am coming back, I thought Oct I will really be back there. Not the case man!

From April to June to July, to Oct. Now what? Jan?

Fuck man!

So over it!

I shall just die.

xoxo
DjKoko

Trip Woot Woots!

2009-08-19T22:33:00.002+08:00

Work just started and yes! Surprisingly I am loving it. Why?
Cause there is a lot of trip to go and school fairs to attend.

Right now, I am in Surabaya, flying back Jakarta tml night. Coming back to Surabaya on the 23rd and flying back to Jkt on the 25th. Then flying to Malang on the 1st Sept back to Jkt on the 7th Sept. How busy was that for me?

Aiyayayayyayayaiii! ^^'''

I just really hope I am doing a great job and able to close some deal.

I NEED COMMISSIONS!! T.T

Oh Lord! Please help me!

xoxo
DjKoko

I Don't Care About Lollipop

2009-08-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

I am now in love with this two Korean song! Haha!

Enjoy!

<3<3

xoxo
DjKoko

Cape...

2009-08-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

Gue kadang terasa cape ama kehidupan gue ini. Kadang gue merasa apa yang gue harus lakukan supaya hudip gue itu lebih enak, lebih sip? Gue gak bisa kepikir, entah tao kenapa.

Kadang gue juga merasa klo, loe mikir ada beberapa temenmu itu adalah temen baik loe. Tapi apa bener klo dia anggep sesama kamu?

Gue bener2 cape banget. Kerja punya target gak tercapai, sekolah pun masih lama.
Gue harap gue gak akan ketemu a very wise person. Gue gak bisa sanggup untuk dengerin apa yang akan dikatakan.

Cape memang cape gue!

Pasrah.

xoxo
DjKoko

A Song.

2009-08-04T01:43:00.001+08:00

A bird sang his song in December
A magical rhythm so sweet to remember
Wind started blowing so bitterly cold
But still the bird sang loud and bold

Snow falling heavily, turning everything white
I stood there in wonder as the bird sang
Such heartwarming melody did not seem to belong
When all the earth slumbered, with all the trees bare

The bird sensed my presence and he turned to see
A man standing in the snow, enjoying his chirping
It spreads his wings and flew off
My eyes could not follow, I thought I would weep

So there I stood lonely, on that frigid winter eve
Remembering that bird, and his brief reprieve
As I walk away wishing, I was lost in my thoughts
Of that brave bird and the song he brought

So now this December will not seem as cold
As I think of that bird, and his lovely tune

xoxo
DjKoko

No Title.

2009-08-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

Jealous much!

I am neither here nor there. So shut up and let me go!

xoxo
DjKoko

Already Gone.

2009-07-31T23:40:00.005+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone - Kelly Clarkson

xoxo
DjKoko

Less Is More.

2009-07-31T00:41:00.004+08:00

Was told that, "Friends a few is enough".

I couldn't agree more with that.

Thus I realized that, yeah... I am a lot of friends out there. But truth to be told, how many of them are really can be considered a true friend?

I do my math and yeah, I only have less than 10 that I can really stamp them as my true friend.
I think that will be enough for me.

I am not saying that the rest it's not considered, you are still my friends but somehow maybe we just got along well just being friends and maybe not to a level of "buddies" or "BFF".

So yeah.

xoxo
DjKoko.

Let It Rock.

2009-07-27T21:09:00.002+08:00

It was definitely an awesome weekend for me.

Went back to Singapore for my graduation ceremony, but that's the great escape from the hectic crap happening in Jkt.

Meet my buddies and friends over there whom I missed dear lots, really have a great time meeting them and catching up and going down the memory lane again.

Definitely great time. =)

The saddest thing is that, my mother can't make it to graduation and yes, it was pretty saddening but if my mother is around in town, I dont think I am able to meet my friends in late nights.

So I guess it's a win-win situation.

Ahhh! Can't wait for October.

xoxo
DjKoko

Demi Cinta.

2009-07-22T03:03:00.007+08:00

Another damn sad song...

Maaf ku telah menyakitimu
ku telah kecewakanmu
bahkan ku sia-siakan hidupku
dan ku bawa kau seperti diriku

Walau hati ini trus menangis
menahan kesakitan ini
tapi kulakukan semua demi cinta

Akhirnya juga harus kurelakan
kehilangan cinta sejatiku
segalanya telah kuberikan
juga semua kekuranganku

Jika memang ini yang terbaik
untuk diriku dan dirinya
kan kuterima semua demi cinta

* Jujur aku tak kuasa
saat terakhir ku genggam tanganmu
namun yang pasti terjadi
kita mungkin tak bersama lagi

** Bila nanti esok hari
ku temukan dirimu bahagia
ijinkan aku titipkan
kisah cinta kita selamanya

Repeat *
Repeat **

Demi cinta. - Kerispatih

Means (Roughly): I am sorry that i hurt you, i let you down, even i sacrifice my life and i bring you along with me. Although, my heart is crying, restrain this pain in my heart, but i'm willing to do it all for love. At last, i need to give it up, losing my true love, with all that i gave to, and also all my shortcoming. Even if this is mean for the best, for my own sake and your sake, i am willing to accept all for love. Honestly i dont have the power, when I last hold your hand, whatever that happened, we bound not meant to be together. When tml comes, I met you being happy, please allow me to guard our love story forever... For Love.

xoxo
DjKoko.

Semua Tentang Kita.

2009-07-22T02:31:00.003+08:00

One sad song indeed.

Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
Akan tiada lagi kini tawamu
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
Ceritakan semua tentang kita

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa - Peterpan

Means (roughly): Time seems to fly fast, where our story left us, no more with your smile, to erase all the loneliness in my heart. There was a story about her and I, we were together way before time past, there was a beautiful story, when we both grieve and when we laugh. Remembered at the moment we laughed together, tell me all the story about us

xoxo
DjKoko

Holding On.

2009-07-17T00:16:00.002+08:00

I think I realized that I wont be getting my LPR for now.

So I guess I will be going back Singapore to continue my degree this coming October, means I will be still in Indo for the next 2 months.

Goodness!! This is the first time that I am in Indo for so long, not that I am sick of it, but they make me. Argh!

Guess, I got to do what I got to do.

Oh Well~~

xoxo
DjKoko

AbsoFuckingLutely UnHappy!

2009-07-10T22:39:00.004+08:00

Again... The appeal was rejected. I don't know what is wrong with the government for not allowing me who literally a Singaporean to work in her country.

Fucking shit man.

Now I have 2 options left.

A) Study and get my degree and then apply whilst studying.
Or
B) Apply for LPR (Landed PR)

Both option is not really that cool, I must say.

Seriously.

If I take (A) I will start my damn bridging programme in October which means I will still be "working" in Indo for another 3 months. That is not cool, I am sick and tired of Indo (for now).
The traffic, the people, the pollution and etc! Fuck shit man!

If I take (B), there are a lot of things that I need to do and not mentioning the suspense that I need to face (which I HATE the most). To be eligible applying LPR, I need to at least obtain my Degree first, yet there are ppl who able to apply with just a Diploma. So I thought, I need to have a very proffessional Lady Luck with me.

I am chosing (B) for now though, see what the future have in store for me?

Oh great, now I need to wait for another month or.... NOT!

Now, I need to answer a lot of crap why am I not back there yet? Why am I still here?
Why this? What that? How shit?

Argh! There is nothing I can do other than hoping for the best.

I am really not happy right now!!!

VERY!!!!

xoxo
DjKoko

P/S: Love Track 3.

http://www.endahnrhesa.com/P03Media/Music/AS3_mp3_playlist_player.html

Never Say Never.

2009-07-05T22:46:00.002+08:00

My closest friend, John, is flying to Melbourne to pursue is Degree in Mass Comm with Monash Uni.

I am sad that I am unable to send him off at the airport. But nevertheless, I do sent him of via call. Haha!

Oh man! I really missed the time in school. All the studying, the midnight bitching and the yadayada!

Argh!!!

I wanna go back!!!! Damn!!! MOM! Approve my WP please!!!

Sigh!!!

I missed you guys so badly!

xoxo
DjKoko

Make You Feel My Love.

2009-06-29T01:20:00.002+08:00

Love it to my deepest soul!

xoxo
DjKoko

Le Sigh...

2009-06-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

Rejected...

Sigh...

Appealing...

Sigh...

Sitting... Waiting... Wishing...

Le Sigh~~~~~~

xoxo
DjKoko

Still Sitting, Waiting, Wishing...

2009-06-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

It's end of June soon.

July is starting in a week time.

Still no news.

Still sitting...

...

Waiting...

...

Wishing...

When will I really hear the news?

Sigh!

I dont wanna stay in here any longer. (Not that I dont like... But I am sick of it ald)

Sigh..

xoxo
DjKoko

Kids These Days.

2009-06-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

I got to say and admit, yes I am jealous!!!

GOD DAMN IT!

I have two young cousins who are still 11 years old and 13 years old respectively.

So here's what happened, so they went to shop with their auntie and her OLD "boyfriend". And apparently the OLD bugger is very loaded!

So he bought an iPhone 3G for my 11y-o cousin not only that also iPod 8G one. (Damnation!)
For the 13y-o, he got 2 VIP tickets to watch Man U match in Indonesia in 27th July and also some expensive shoes and clothing.

Shit man!!
So effing lucky!

I know I am being stupid of being jealous of my own cousins, but seriously, why all these never happened to me arh? Sialaannnn!!! Kampret!

Whereas for me, I need to work hard for what I wanted.

And to be honest, those two cousins are getting more and more spoilt and no manners. They better dont rub me in the wrong way or else you will be in my blacklist.

Yes, I know that I shouldnt treat my family like that, but seriously. Tau diri donk!

xoxo
DjKoko

Girls Just Want To Have Fun.

2009-06-18T02:39:00.003+08:00

Came home in the middle of the night
My father says, "What you gonna do with your life"
Well daddy dear
You're still number one

Oh
Girls
They want to have fun
Oh
Girls
They

The phone rings in the middle of the night
My mother says, "When you gonna live your life right"
Well mother dear
We're not the fortunate ones

All girls
They want to have fun
Oh
Girls
They

That's all they really want
Those girls
They want to have fun

Some boys take a beautiful girl
Only to hide her away from the rest of the world
Not me
I want to be the one in the sun

Girls
They want to have fun
Oh
Girls
They that's all they really want
Those girls they wanna have fun
- Greg Laswell

Love the song! But is it true? Haha!

Oh well.

xoxo
DjKoko

Save Me.

2009-06-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

Save me
I feel like I’m goin’ crazy
I’ve got this lady
She’s got me on my knees
I’m saying baby baby please
Don’t leave tonight without giving me
Some of your lovin’ it makes me weak
Somebody save me

And lately
I feel like I’m goin’ crazy
I’ve got this lady
The way her lips just move
The way her hips just groove
The feelin’ I get when she says my name
It’s a feeling that never feels the same
Save me

Coz I found the
Love that is one of a kind
This time I’m in for real
And I know I’m just way too deep
Someone, oh someone
Save me now

And lately,
I know I’m goin’ crazy
I’ve got this lady
You’re now that’s all I think about
The next time I can take her out
I really don’t wanna feel this way
But I think it’s already way too late
Save me

I found the love that is one of a kind
This time I’m in for real
I know..I’m just way too deep
Someone ooohh someone
Save me

Coz I’ve been there way too many times before
And everytime I say it’s not gonna work
Not this time so…save me
Just save me
Somebody save me

Yeah…oh ohhh

Coz I found the love that is one of a kind
This time I’m in for real
and I know I’m just way too deep
Someone…oh someone
I said someone….

Save me now

Save me now… - Josh Verdes.

xoxo
DjKoko

Hurt.

2009-06-07T23:44:00.003+08:00

It's really been a while that I feel this way I used to feel about a certain things.
I am really wish that I can find that someone/something is truly mine.

It is really hard to think that you already nail something that can turn out making different in your life and suddenly just gone with the nick of time. I am really hurt and disappointed that it always have to happen to me.

Crap, there is no point of venting all this crap. Why I even think this way? If have been experiencing it, why will I still be venting/ranting all this crap?

I just cant let it sail through I guess. Or maybe I am this kind of person?
Ugh! Isn't that just ugly.

Sigh!

I hope I can sleep and wake up to a different day! I need to make myself busy in order to forget this feeling.

Pfft.

xoxo
DjKoko

Chasing Pavement.

2009-06-04T01:18:00.001+08:00

Love the song!
Love the MV.
Love her!

Thanks Ko Han2. =)

xoxo
DjKoko

A Moonlike Person.

2009-06-03T16:24:00.002+08:00

Haha!

How true this can be again?!

You hide your emotion sometimes .You are a moon type of person. You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to no burden your friends with your problems. You've faced some problems in your life. Your heart has dealt blows before. You tend to think about things alot more than other people. And you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about what would happen later.You are also the type of person that others often come to you with their problems because you've been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely. Your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed.You usually are logical, and rely alot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself. This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments, just like the moon has phases. Sorry if this is incorrect, but still, I would like to have comments, please rate it! and if you like, try to get your friends to take the quiz also! please try to send it to as many people as you want. thanks for taking the quiz. Much appriciated.

Source- FB Quiz

Hahaha! I think it's true though. =)

xoxo
DjKoko

The Forsaken One.

2009-06-02T01:03:00.001+08:00

How true is this?

The Forsaken One: Sometimes you wonder about this life... is it worth living for? Your experiences have tethered your heart, your woes weigh down on your soul. It is hard for you to fathom the reason behind the hardship... but somehow you find a way. Your deep understanding of pain results in an empathy for others who have experienced similar. You will be the last to judge someone for who they are and what they've been through. You put up walls to guard yourself; but when you let someone in, they are able to see what a deep and fantastic being you are.

Source- FB Quiz.

My sis and a buddy of mine thinks is true.

Oh well.

-.-

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xoxo
DjKoko

P/S: Its JUNE!!! Am I free to fly?!

Come On!!!

2009-05-27T14:03:00.000+08:00

Oh man! May is ending soon! And here comes June...

What should I do? I dont think i will be working in June... Or maybe i should get a break in June and July will work and study like hell?

What should i do yeah?!?!

Sigh!

Hopefully i can get the job man!!!

Oh Lord Almighty!! T.T

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Damn random man!

xoxo
DjKoko

Misses.

2009-05-22T01:37:00.001+08:00

Oh baby!!

I miss you so bad!!!

My life...
My love..
My everything...

Sheesh!!
So corny and cheesy!
Corn cheese?! Hmmm! Nice!!!

Anyway, I think Bitches you should be burn in hell like witches!!!

Gee. Ar. Ar!

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Damn random!
I know!

Sheeshhh...

xoxo
DjKoko

Memories.

2009-05-17T12:51:00.002+08:00

Memories are our way of keeping the past alive. Some are so painful we never want to visit them again. But a memory can also be a gift, something we can open again and again in order to fill ourselves with happiness.

And sometimes a moment becomes a memory the instant it's happening because it is so true, so pure and so significant, you want to capture it forever.

xoxo
DjKoko

Trust.

2009-05-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

Is trust really important to us, being?

Is there anyone that in the world that you trust the most? If so, how sure are we that they wont stab us in the back?

How do we really need to gain each others' trust if we can't trust the one that know us best...

Ourselves.

Will we be able to trust this world is recovering?
Is our friends is who they are in front of us and so does back of us?

Why is it hard to just live on with our lives?

xoxo
DjKoko

Stoned.

2009-05-13T12:01:00.001+08:00

I am back to my roots, which means back to my work.

And damn I am stoning here not knowing what the hell to do.
Crap! What should I write on my daily report!

Calliiiieeeee!!!! T.T

xoxo
DjKoko

About Women Quotes.

2009-05-10T00:36:00.001+08:00

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE

(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission.
Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F--- YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

Source-Sheng

xoxo
DjKoko

If(s).

2009-05-06T01:17:00.004+08:00

I may not be the happiest guy in the world.

I may not be the tallest guy in the world.

I may not be the richest guy in the world.

I may not be the most fortunate guy in the world.

I may not be the smartest guy in the world.

I may not be the wisest guy in the world.

I may not be the coolest guy in the world.

I may not be the luckiest guy in the world.

I may not be the friendliest in the world.

I may not be the strongest in the world.

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If I am not anything at my best in the world, will I really be able to survive in this world?

If I am not anything at my but myself in the world, will I really be able to achieve something?

If I am not anything that what the world is looking for in this world, will I really be able to keep on walking?

If I am not...

If there is so much if in this world, why aren't there much an answer to every if(s). If there is an answer to every if(s), why would we be going on with if?

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Damn random aren't I?

xoxo
DjKoko

About English.

2009-05-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

You think English is easy???

Read to the end . . . a new twist

- The bandage was wound around the wound.

- The farm was used to produce produce .

- Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present

- When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.

- The insurance was invalid for the invalid.

- There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row

- They were too close to the door to close it.

- The buck does funny things when the does are present.

- A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.

- The wind was too strong to wind the sail.

- Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.

- I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.

- How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

Let's face it - English is a crazy language.

There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat. We take English for granted.

But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth, beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which, an alarm goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course, is not a race at all That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

PS. - Why doesn't 'Buick' rhyme with 'quick'

You lovers of the English language might enjoy this .

There is a two-letter word that perhaps has more meanings than any other two-letter word, and that is 'UP'.

It's easy to understand UP, meaning toward the sky or at the top of the list, but when we awaken in the morning, why do we wake UP ? At a meeting, why does a topic come UP? Why do we speak UP and why are the officers UP for election and why is it UP to the secretary to write UP a report ?

We call UP our friends. And we use it to brighten UP a room, polish UP the silver, we warm UP the leftovers and clean UP the kitchen. We lock UP the house and some guys fix UP the old car. At other times the little word has real special meaning. People stir UP trouble, line UP for tickets, work UP an appetite, and think UP excuses. To be dressed is one thing, but to be dressed UP is special.

And this UP is confusing: A drain must be opened UP because it is stopped UP . We open UP a store in the morning but we close it UP at night.

We seem to be pretty mixed UP about UP! To be knowledgeable about the proper uses of UP, look the word UP in the dictionary. In a desk-sized dictionary, it takes UP almost 1/4th of the page and can add UP to about thirty definitions. I f you are UP to it, you might try building UP a list of the many ways UP is used. It will take UP a lot of your time, but if you don't give UP, you may wind UP with a hundred or more. When it threatens to rain, we say it is clouding UP When the sun comes out we say it is clearing UP..

When it rains, it wets the earth and often messes things UP .

When it doesn't rain for awhile, things dry UP .

One could go on and on, but I'll wrap it UP , for now my time is UP , so............ it is time to shut UP ...!

Source: Herlina

xoxo
DjKoko

Purpose Of Life.

2009-04-29T14:25:00.004+08:00

Staring at the wall in my room make me wanna write this few things down.

After all the people that come to me and share their problems, what-so-ever, I just thought out a few points that we got to work it out in our lives.

- Communication is more important than trust, which must be earned and not simply expected.

- Friends are those who will notice when you are lost and try to find you, who will make you laugh when you are hurting.

- Friendship is a ship that carries two or more people in good weather but only one person in bad weather.

- Love at first sight is merely intense infatuation.

- Love prematurely professed should be taken with a pinch of salt.

- The one you like the most will almost never like you.

- Whoever says looks do not matter is lying or does not have them.

For now that's what i thought of.
xoxo
DjKoko

Pfft...

2009-04-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

I am so pissed with just people are purely rude when you are concern about them. It seriously turn me off like a lot!

Damn arse! Its like what the fuck man?! Do I really deserves to be treated like that?
Fuck man!
I've nothing but nice to those people and yet that's how I was treated.

Totally S.O.B!
I never been so angry at a person this much in my life!

On the verge of dying in my book.
I'll see if there is possible to just blacklist them!

FUCK MAN!
KNN! CCB!!!!!!

FUCK YOU!!!!!

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Pfft!

xoxo
DjKoko

Bandung!!

2009-04-26T23:42:00.005+08:00

Had a field trip to Bandung last weekend with my cousin who is expecting, so maybe that's the reason of why I went ot Bandung with her, to take care of her and I think the main reason is for me to shop and eat! HAHA! But my cousin is my priority. Haha!

Overspent my budget for the trip, literally bought like dozens of tops and bottoms, sandals but all so worth it! Haha!

My cousin is a regular at Bandung, so
she intro me places with good view and good food. First night dinner at The Valley, it is at mountain top and the the view is breathtaking at night! The restaurant is very very modernized and definitely a awesome place to chill and hang out. =)

(The ordered food)

(My cousin and I)

(A glimpse of the place- The Valley)

Spent a night at Hyatt as my cousin can get claim from the company so make use of it! Haha!

Then the last night before we head back to Jkt, we had our dinner at Kampung Daun, another mountain top restaurant. For this place, the place is so hilly and we got to climb up the hill (just a short one) to get out seat and the seat is like a hut! Very nice scenery!!!! Love it.

(The food we ordered)

After a weekend there, here I am back to reality!

Tml back to working... Arghhh!!! Let it be a good one!!! T.T

xoxo
DjKoko

P/S: Oh oh! Not forgetting the Bandung brownies and Pisang Molen! OMG!!!! AWESOME!!!!!! ^^ Bought back 5 each! WAHAHHAHA!

Life Need To Goes On.

2009-04-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

I am truly inspired by Nick.
To think how fortunate we are when have everything that he don't.
He is the total inspiration and motivation to those who give up easily and quit easily.

xoxo
DjKoko

Falling Slowly.

2009-04-22T00:42:00.002+08:00

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing it loud
- Glen Hansard

Totally into this song!

xoxo
DjKoko

What The...

2009-04-21T11:27:00.001+08:00

I don't know to be sad or pissed.

What the...

Friends are just so unpredictable...

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xoxo
DjKoko

Surprisingly Awesome.

2009-04-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

There is a popular phrase of: "Don't judge a book by its cover".
Totally agree with that phrase.

Why?

This (Watch it)

VERY VERY VERY AMAZING PERFORMANCE!
She just caught you off guard!

xoxo
DjKoko

Bak Chor Mee!

2009-04-16T12:04:00.004+08:00

Finally today is going to be the last day of invigilation, and after that I should be continuing my same ol' job.

Sigh.

Anyway, the things that I do whilst invigilating is pretty much unprofessional. As in one, right now i am blogging plus chatting plus playing FB. Damn I'll be dead if I am caught by my boss! So you readers better not sabo me! HA!

Plus, I am really stressing up on finding a place to stay in Sg. It is just hard when your parent didnt really trusted you on renting a place, but I cant really blame them of having that doubt afterall they are parent., that's what most parent do, they doubt. Sigh!

I am tired of just convincing them and the only one who is vexing about this. Oh Lord!
Place place place~~~~ Where are you?!?!?!?

Argh!

Oh oh! Just wanna share the joy.

My baby!

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Yeah right! Haha!
My godson/daughter (still dont know the sex yet) gonna-be.

xoxo
DjKoko

Boredomxz...

2009-04-14T10:17:00.002+08:00

Today was my second day invigilating, and OMG it is so boring!

Amber was here in town for just ONE guy sitting for the exam. And I'll be in charge for the next two days and oh Lord what should I do during invigilation?! Argh!

Now i really know how is it felt to be a teacher while invigilating. But actually most of the time it is still not bad, as you will have like one whole class to invigilate, but not in my case! =((

Arghhh! I am not complaining, just sharing! HAHA!

Damn the student is here!

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Please do not read the question paper until i said so man!!! WAHAHA!!
(Lame)

xoxo
DjKoko

Blank Mind.

2009-04-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

Oh...

This is a total random.
Mind wanting to blog.
But heart says there is nothing to blog.
So hand just decided to type this entry, with no reason.

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Lame-arse! :S

xoxo
DjKoko

Trouble Is My Friend.

2009-04-04T00:07:00.001+08:00

Trouble will find you no mater where you go, oh oh.
No Matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow, oh oh.
The eye of the storm and the cry in the morn, oh oh.
Your fine for a while but you start to loose control.

[Chorus 1:]
He's there in the dark,
he's there in my heart,
he waits in the wings
he's gotta play a part.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh.
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh.
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh.
So don't forget as you ease on down the road.

[Chorus 1]

[Chorus 2:]
So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.
I won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh!

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel.
And how I try to make him leave; I try.
Oh Oh I try! - Lenka

xoxo
DjKoko

Joy To Thee Megan.

2009-04-02T21:41:00.005+08:00

Oh man! I hate to admit that Megan Joy out from the competition (American Idol)!!!!!!!!

I really love her unique voice and quirky singing steps/moves.

Oh man! I am gonna miss her! WILL DEFINITELY MISS HER!
Hopefully she come out with her album and will definitely buy it!!

Damn! I miss her already! ARGH!

I DONT WANT ADAM LAMBERT TO WIN! ARGH!

I HEART YOU, MEGAN JOY! T.T

xoxo
DjKoko

Walkin' After Midnight.

2009-04-01T01:39:00.002+08:00

Had a chat with my buddy. We talked about traveling out for a relaxing holiday before going in to a real world.

I thought it will be a great idea to do so, but it will be pretty much a dream, i guess.

When will I be really happy, as in really happy with my life?

*Thoughts
*Reflexes
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Pfft!

xoxo
DjKoko

Oh Damn!

2009-03-30T01:38:00.001+08:00

One question: Why on earth that there are people are so easy to get something they want but not me? I got to work so hard for it and sometimes its just a waste of time doing it as in the end I might not get it.

So what's the point?

xoxo
DjKoko

稻香.

2009-03-29T11:40:00.001+08:00

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好- Jay Chou

Awesome song.

xoxo
DjKoko

Sometimes...

2009-03-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

Its been a while that I want to post something I have been feeling lately. It really make me just go sick thinking about it.

Things back in Indo will never always be a good thing. I am not complaining or anything about my life or what, but i think i am just really trying to figure things out what really been going in my life.

I thought going back Indo, i can really share some of my thoughts and feeling about a few certain things to my family will be easier and much better as i am given the chance to spend my time with them for the last three months.

No! That's not really the case.

In fact it just simply hard to really share with them, when its hard to try to share with them and then they share or say about something that will just make me think twice whether or not it was the right time to share.

Or sometimes i just want to say something to them, it will be so hard to even say a starter. I always think what will the convo lead to? Will I be answered to what i need them to ans? Will I be getting some response that I am looking for?

Yeah yeah! I know sometimes things wont neccesary be going your way. But sometimes it just will right? So therefore the self questions.

I just really tired of trying to talk to them man. I mean there are certain things that they decided for me to do in life is just not the way i wanted my life to be it. I know i am still sucking their money to live, but arent i have a part that should at least take control of and making the decision? Its my life after all. Sheesh.

Sometimes I just really wanna yell at them to just stop whatever and hear me out. But I cant.

Yeah yeah! I got no guts or balls. Whatever. I rather make myself sick than making them sick (not in a bad way, i am just out of words to describe it) of me.

I am thankfull to them actually. But arent it time for me to at least making decision for my life? Then what is the purpose of my life when they are in control?
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That should be enough.

xoxo
DjKoko

Some People.

2009-03-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

I have met a lot kind of people in my life, so far. I just cant think of a reason why there are such person who just got to be such a jerk or an arse.

Seriously, I hate some people who just take others as an advantage. I mean where is your dignity and pride man! These kind of people should be burn in hell.

You treat that person well enough, ending up you got shits back as a return. Behhh! Najong!

I am so sick of this people already man! I will try my hardest go get rid of those people.

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Crap!

xoxo
DjKoko

P/S: Not referring to anyone specific.

What to do?

2009-03-15T15:24:00.003+08:00

Okay, I was told that i didnt really update my entry quite as often as I used to (Ginnoi). What to do?! Kind of busy with figuring out my life. HA!

Anyway, am at a fair now, the turn up rate was pretty low FOR NOW, no idea what will happen for the next few hours.

Damn!!!

So what do you guys wanna know what's going on with my life?!

To be honest, my life is pretty boring. So yeap! =)

xoxo
DjKoko

Die!

2009-03-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

I think that's it for my career peroid! I didnt meet the target that i was assigned.

Die loh! =(

xoxo
DjKoko

Finally (Fun) Time.

2009-03-08T02:23:00.002+08:00

After all the screwed up days...

Finally today loosen up and have a booze or two with cousins.

Damn! I missed those nights!

Nevertheless, one of the best nights so far in Indo, but cant compare to the night i had with my buddy.

That night was a blast! Hahaha!

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Reports.... -.-'''

xoxo
DjKoko

$%%$#@%$ (2)

2009-03-02T23:38:00.001+08:00

I hate my life.

Period.

xoxo
DjKoko

#$#%

2009-02-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

I am really out of options now!

I could careless what should i do.

WHERE ARE YOU MY... MY... MY... PLAN!!!!!??!?!

xoxo
DjKoko

Ahhh! Crapxz!

2009-02-25T10:55:00.001+08:00

I really wonder why things not looking up for me yeah?

I mean... WHAT THE HELL! SERIOUSLY!

Why is it so hard to do a darn good job!

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FUCK!

xoxo
DjKoko

Misses

2009-02-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

I really really really do am miss you.

I miss you real bad!

xoxo
DjKoko

All Gone.

2009-02-21T01:14:00.002+08:00

Both of my awesome friend have gone back to where they should be.

Now i am all alone in this darn country working my arse off for the win. But outcome is just damn bitch!

Damn! My only source to fun and party away from me now.

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Sigh!

Will miss them!

xoxo
DjKoko

Pusing Anjing!

2009-02-20T18:34:00.002+08:00

I am really in a very rough period of my life.

Really.

Things just works perfectly for others but not for darn me! Why is it so?

Fuck! Seriously!

xoxo
DjKoko

P/S: I had a blast last night. I will really missed those night buddy!

Random Venting.

2009-02-16T22:45:00.003+08:00

I really wonder sometimes when is it that I am able do stuff that I really love.

I mean all this while life is pretty redundant in a sense of why others are able to be so fortunate in certain things and yet I need to go through hell and back to actually do something as fortunate as others.

Really, others around me by all means family and friends they are really lucky in a sense of how fortunate they are with/in their life. Its like damn easy to get what they want in they life and what they expect with their life.

Its not that I am not happy with my life all, but it just got me wondering all. That's it.

I know life ain't perfect or anything, we just got work hard to make our life perfect. Then what about those ppl who life are so darm great and awesome.

Damn! Now I start to compare and contrast.

Should just end this!

Overall, my life is pretty standard compare (again) to those I know.

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Bleah~

xoxo
DjKoko

Dear My Mun.

2009-02-13T01:36:00.002+08:00

Dear Ah Mun,

I am sorry cant be there for you. But I will always be here and there for you. Even though we are miles away in addition of a very stuck up connection. Feel free to spam my emails if you need to share or let go.

I am really sorry and I am really for not able to be there (I think I am repeating) like I used to back in S'pore and I truly hope and wish that I could be with you right now to accompany you and let you pour your heart out to my humble ear. I am more than happy to do so, as you are my Ah Muntou! ^^

I am also sorry that I cant catch up with you tonight as I need to work tml morning and I mean 6 am morning! I KNOW SUCKS RIGHT! BUT WORK FOR THE CASH!!!! ^^

Babe! I really miss you man!

Catch up with you soon yach!

Loves and misses
DjKoko

T.T

2009-02-10T12:00:00.002+08:00

Ahh! It's been a while i updated my blog...

So here are some random one.

Days were really hectic as hell as work start to pay off.
Fairs to go.
Presentation to prepare.

Night were are as lonely as usual.
Checking emails.
Tagging.
Watch shows.
Chat.
Prepare for tml work.

Crap!!!!

Its Febuary already and i still have no news or idea where to continue for my Degree!

Sadded!

xoxo
DjKoko

Bleah!

2009-02-05T21:09:00.002+08:00

What is it that I do to you that make me thinks that you are worth to be cared?!

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Bleah!

xoxo
DjKoko

Work For The Cash. (Back)

2009-02-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

Argh! Chinese New Year and my birthday were over. So back to work.

Damn! Having a week break (literally) sucks! It makes me just wanna slack even more! Sigh!

This months is pretty full of events and presentation. So i guess its worth the work! Ha!

Yeah Right....

Well! Thats all!

^^

xoxo
DjKoko

Post Birthday.

2009-01-31T00:52:00.001+08:00

Okay. There is nothing much to update on my birthday. Its literally the worse birthday ever.
I mean its my 21st and it was lackluster day.

Argh! I am done!

xoxo
DjKoko

Happy Birthday, Me.

2009-01-30T02:22:00.008+08:00

Wishes (from one i care to the weird one)

From Joette,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY PSEUDO BESTFRIEND HAHA. Love you lots, miss your place and lying down on benches, staring at the stars and the clouds at night, trying to make our shapes and laughing at our own stupidity and sheer boredom.

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From Richard,

Hey happy 21st birthday! Hope u have a wonderful day and all the best for everything u do. Sorry couldnt be there for ur party. Make it up to u when we meet! bo tha bo lampa! Haha

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From Ginn,

It's the 30th here. So I guess I'll be wishing you a precise birthday, but belated there. Hehe it doesn't even make sense!!!

Anyway! I wish you a happy, happy birthday. Well it might have expired there, since your birthday should be over by now! hehe but more than everything, I wish you love this year. I wish you to have ample supply of love from your family, friends (moi included), dogs, strangers, colleague (since you're working now), clients and ... ehm... girlfriend.

I wish all the joy in the world, and you will give your thanks although life sucks. It won't stay sucks for long. Especially since you're now a paid labour. Hehehehehe...

So I love you I love you I love you and you love me back I know. Massive hug,
Your best ever truly bff,
ttys,
Ginnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

nnnnn

PS: You must tell me about your party.Don't care. It's 21 eh!!

(Its an email. Haha!)

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From John,

OI PUI AYE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! and omg i saw this guy yesterday who reminded me off u... COME BACK SOON... dont make me go down there to kick ur fat ass back to singapore.

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From Nonie,

Happy bday riz....wish u all the bezzzzzza...jangan lupa traktiran nya ya...semoga makin baik...terutama temen lo yang satu ini hehe!

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From Mona,

i cant wish u tmrw cause i will be away...so, happy 21st!!!!

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From Shirley,

Riz! Happy Birthday yah!
All the best jg for your future endeavours!
Hope youhave a blast! =)

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From Dione,

seBASTIAN, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY.
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to Bastian
happy birthday to you

You have been such joy to have around.

anyway super random, but i think Bastian fits the surname Tan.
Bastian Tan. Haha

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From Sherwin,

I know I SMSed you, but I DON'T CARE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAUS! : D

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From MakWin,

Eh, Pak! Selamat ulang tahun! Come back and take care of our children!! *hugs*

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From Charlotte,

hey bastian!! happy birthday!! hope that you have a wonderful birthday!!!!! and you're lookin good ;) hehe

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From Min,

hey! happy bas day. lol

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From Philie,

Happy Birthday XBB. XP

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From Hendry,

risk bas jink.. hmm resiko bas jink..
hepi bdaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
all the best..
semoga tambah besarrrrrrrrrrrr...
ok done. wkwkwkw
21 bos uda tuaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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From Octha,

happiie bdae sebastiaaaan =p
hahaha =)

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From Roy,

Risky!!!!!!!!!!!happy 21st birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!all d best for ur career and studies!!!!stay wise man!!!!!!!!

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From Ricky,

Happy Birthday Bro!!! Wish u all the best in everything!!! Ayo sekolah photography...hahaha udah siap gitu megang tas, pic nya..lol.. GBU ^^

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From Lily,

BAS BAS BAS !
HAPY BDAY =D
b a good boy . hahahah .
dun spam me anymor .
km kpn k spor lagi ?
gua tagih lo makan2 na . hihiii .
take care lo =)

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From Dick,

yo bro...happy birthday yah!...traktir makan!!!...=D

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That would be all. The rest are just a birthday greet. But i do appreciate it all of them! ^^

xoxo
DjKoko

Festive Indeed (Not).

2009-01-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

Its been a hella of a week. It Chinese New Year and its the same week as my big 21. Oh well.

Its been making me wonder what should i really do during my birthday? I have not much friends here and all my great friends area away. So that's leave me to my own family and friends that are coincidentally in town for holiday. I guess, i just have some small celebration.

Damn! I really thought that my 21 will be great, fun, awesome and memorable. But i guess not that the case.

Argh! Now I missed them so much. I really really wish to celebrate my big 21 with them. ARGH!

Damndamndamndamndamn! T.T

I need alternatives...

I have been so down lately after the shows that make feel so! Damn man!
I hate #@!#@#%$!@%@!

xoxo
DjKoko

I Hate It.

2009-01-26T00:31:00.001+08:00

I really hate people who is not appreciative of others.

They should just go fuck themselves and get their own fucking life!

Fuck off!

xoxo
DjKoko

Alas Life.

2009-01-24T22:13:00.002+08:00

Phew! It was tiring week at Pontianak, I must say. Now that I am back to Jakarta, I thought things will be better, but it was not what I at least expected.

It was just the same old things.

Man!

As much as I love black and white, I don't really want my life to be just black and white. I need colors, I need pop, I need excitement, I need fireworks, I need to at least knowing that I live my life the way I wanted and... Sheesh... I am getting to the emo state again! Argh! Resolution is never my thing. $@#%!

I am always at this state after watching Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. This shows making me realized everyday how life is short and every decision counts to every moment in your life. I hate to admit it but I just can't help to think and bother about it.

Crap! I need to change!

Seriously!

xoxo
DjKoko

Jazzy Night.

2009-01-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

I am at Hotel Santika, Pontianak now and sitting down at the lounge listening to the jazz singer, not so bad and having a drink. How nice...

Yeah right...

While listening to the jazzy song and sipping beer, i m doing my work too at the same time. How nice? Rubbish!

ARGH! Tml result is out! I am so nervous!!!! T.T

xoxo
DjKoko

People...

2009-01-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

There are lot of different kind of people that coming in and going out in my entire life.

But how is it that you can considered to be a really good friend?

I have plenty of of them, but try thinking it the other way round? Do they considered you the same way you considered them?

It is really hard to be so nice to someone and yet they are so less appreciative.

Sucks, yes?

Tell me about it.

xoxo
DjKoko

P/S: Not applying to anyone in specific.

WHY?!?!?!?!??!?!?

2009-01-16T01:12:00.001+08:00

I AM SO SAD!!!!

WHY CANT I GO BACK ON THE 16?!?!?!??!!?!??!?!

WHY?!?!?!??!
DAMN YOU SIS!!!!

xoxo
DjKoko

Goodness.

2009-01-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

Really! No kid! I am very tired this few days...

Work is not really really a good things to do! Damn! Especially in Indonesia where the landscape is so big. Damn!

I literally spent the whole day to do school visits and those are just for the sake of making appointment and not knowing whether or not am able to do THE REAL job. Damn!

I am so bad that my mum got to drive me around as I am yet unsure about Indo's road.

Argh! Plus the weather have been crazy lately, rains the whole day and plus floods here and there, therefore there is limits to my school visits target!

Oh God! If you are able to read my blog especially this entry please, I beg you as your humble servant to stop raining for this month! Thank you!

xoxo
DjKoko

P/S: 16 days...

Tired Gin...

2009-01-12T17:07:00.000+08:00

I am really really worn out with work man!

Its not an easy job! Been to JCC for fair during the weekend from morning to evening and then the next day school visits...

OMG! No more my awesome sleep! Damn!

Been going all JakBar today! And so far the school i visit is a promising school and will keep in touch.

That's about it... I think..

What else did i missed?

xoxo
DjKoko

Life. (Tough).

2009-01-09T19:35:00.002+08:00

Is it...

Tough life or life is tough?

Sigh~~

xoxo
DjKoko

The Holiday.

2009-01-08T17:35:00.007+08:00

I just realized that it's been sometimes that I made and entry a movie review ever the last time I watch a few movies, prolly too lazy to review it.

So here I am just give a few judgments about the shows I'd watched.

Ip Man (2008): AWESOME! Must watch!
Rating: 4.5/5

Bedtime Stories (2008): Not so bad. Should watch it if you are free.
Rating: 3/5

The Holiday (2006): Another AWESOME! Download/watch it online/dvd! Must watch!
Rating: 4.8/5

I really touched by the movie (The Holiday), it was just a simple love story and how different love can have different impact to people and make a difference to their life. How love can changes people minds and feelings.

Overall it was really a great holiday movie. Watch it!

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"You're supposed to be the leading lady in your own life, for God's sake!

"If you were a melody... I used only the good notes."

"In the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend."

"Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you."

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

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T.T

xoxo
DjKoko

The (Gleek) Diaries.

Migrating.

Last Christmas.

Alomst Done.

Down.

Taking Chances.

Long Time.

Imagine.

He is Good!!!

1 Is Enough.

Temporary Home.

Now Wait.

GLEE!

What's Next?

God! I Hate You!

Pay For Life.

Annoying!!

Ink.

Bukan Cinta Biasa/Di Antara Kalian.

F. U. 2009

I Made An Accident.

Death Bed.

I Was Once (A) Happy Boy.

Insomnia.

I Am Depress Much!

Trip Woot Woots!

I Don't Care About Lollipop

Cape...

A Song.

No Title.

Already Gone.

Less Is More.

Let It Rock.

Demi Cinta.

Semua Tentang Kita.

Holding On.

AbsoFuckingLutely UnHappy!

Never Say Never.

Make You Feel My Love.

Le Sigh...

Still Sitting, Waiting, Wishing...

Kids These Days.

Girls Just Want To Have Fun.

Save Me.

Hurt.

Chasing Pavement.

A Moonlike Person.

The Forsaken One.

Come On!!!

Misses.

Memories.

Trust.

Stoned.

About Women Quotes.

If(s).

About English.

You think English is easy???

Purpose Of Life.

Pfft...

Bandung!!

Life Need To Goes On.

Falling Slowly.

What The...

Surprisingly Awesome.

Bak Chor Mee!

Boredomxz...

Blank Mind.

Trouble Is My Friend.

Joy To Thee Megan.

Walkin' After Midnight.

Oh Damn!

稻香.

Sometimes...

Some People.

What to do?

Die!

Finally (Fun) Time.

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#$#*%*

Ahhh! Crapxz!

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